November 14, 2012

I have an exam tomorrow, and let’s just be proud of the fact that I started studying tonight. I have a feeling that I’m going to be pulling it out in the zero-hour tomorrow.

I have no idea why this semester is my least-motivated semester, but I am having the worst time getting engaged with the material, which is a bummer because I love the subject matter. We also have a group project, and I feel like all I’m doing is herding cats. I can’t get anyone to get on board.

Is this somehow related to the fact that the last group project I did was for the capstone class, and I had four other group members who were highly engaged and motivated through the process because graduation depended on it? I mean, I was working with people who were in constant communication, were very good about bouncing ideas off one other, and willing to meet at any/all times so that we could get stuff done. This group? Not so much.

As much as I’d like to be the taskmaster and push relentlessly to get this project done, I’m also combating the fact that I just can’t get my energy into it. I could ride them like a two-penny hooker, but I just don’t have it in me right now. All I can do is the little break-off tasks I’ve given myself that work behind the scenes to keep the project rolling.

But anyway, wish me luck tomorrow. I have a pretty decent handle on the material, it’s just going to be remembering it all that’s the tough part.