November 1, 2007

One of the reasons that I don’t blog as much anymore (did I ever?), is because I have never liked laptop keyboards, and as much as I like my new laptop, my reservations have not changed. Also, I have acrylics, and it makes it hard to type.

That said, no excuses.

Today is the first day of NaBloPoMo, 2007. On this day last year, I had scheduled my GRE test, had the books, and was beginning to study. I have not gotten the books for the GMAT, nor have I even decided what I’d like to do for my MBA. I’m ahead of the game by having a job in the first place, but I feel as though I’m falling behind in my outside life. As much as I loathed work as a “jewelry specialist”, at least I had a drive to be something better. I feel as though I’ve settled, and that makes me sad. I want something better, and I know how to get it.

It’s just that I’m so tired at the end of the day. I’m tired and lonely.

Looking back at last year’s entries, I’m sort of bummed that I am as maudlin this year as I was last year.

However, in an improvement, I am learning more about being frugal, managing money, time management and productivity. As either a perk or a bane of my current job, I am forced to think quick, be detail-oriented and stick to schedules. I’m learning to manage, slowly, but I realize that it’s going to take work. I find that despite the times at my job where I am so busy I want to scream, I would much rather have that, as opposed to the days when I am staring at the upholstery on my cubicle.

I feel more grown-up. I feel like I’m doing something of a good job taking care of the shit in my life that needs to be taken care of.

Perhaps I need to look at NaBloPoMo, 2007 as an opportunity: maybe I can use this time as a way to chronicle my growth. Maybe I can spend a month making all of the changes in my life that I need to make. Tomorrow is Friday: I hope that I will sit and have time to work on a list of all the things I want to accomplish in this month; perhaps hammer out the details of my grand plan.