I’m not one of those women who “celebrates” her menses, and there’s something a little bizarre about Always’ well-wishing sticker in their maxipads: “Have a Happy Period”. I really just like to go on with it and be done with it, and not let it complicate my life more than necessary.

I know that I am one of hundreds of thousands of women who suffer from PMDD: something a little more that typical PMS and something a little less than schizophrenia. Meaning, there are times during the month where I exhibit the exact signs of severe depression: complete crying meltdowns (I’m not a crier, ask anyone who knows me (besides The Boy)), sleeping 12+ hours a day, thoughts of suicide, etc. In these days I am not me.

That said, I have a huge problem using “the rag” as an excuse to be dismissive of another’s emotions. I find it to be extremely sexist and downright foul that anytime I’m less than sugar and spice, I’m either a) a bitch, or b) on my period. There’s something so defeatist about having someone accuse your true and honest emotions as not real because of hormonal sway — even when one might not be under those influences. It’s belittling at best, and emotional abuse at the worst.

It’s the advent of the word “hysteria”: a disease that only women can suffer from because they have womanly problems.

To be frank: sometimes I’m angry because you’re acting like a big douchebag, okay? Thank you, have a nice day!

Bad Val Kilmer Movie Weekend was something of a bust, I did watch Thunderheart, but that was about it. I can’t find my copy of The Saint, anymore, which is a damn shame, because I love me some “Thomas Moore the artist lover” scenes. Too bad no man like that exists.

Meena, Megan and I went to Lounge Leo down in Little Italy. Yet again, I was hopelessly under-dressed for yet another situation where I really needed to be sexy. I’ve decided that I just need to be a “bombshell” (even if The Boy objects to me using that phrase) all the damn time. Because you never know when you’re going to get in an argument with your significant other and need to have an impromptu girls night out…where no man in the bar will hit on you or pick you up. …That was a little disappointing.

But, it felt good to go to Lounge Leo: I felt a little Sex in the City-ish simply because it was a tiny bar, but posh and packed, with a “VIP” lounge section in the “basement”. It’s a place you definitely go to sit, drink and talk with the ladies. I, being this hopeless schlub of a girl who hasn’t quite completely crossed the girl bridge into High-Heel-And-Skirt-Island, ordered a Miller Lite (which would have been fine, if I was at Grandview Tavern in Lake Milton — but I wasn’t), and Meena and Megan had chick-ish mixed drinks. Later, I was foisted a beer made by Michelob to appeal to girls who can’t drink real beer, which had “Red Raspberry” or “Tuscan Mandarin” flavor.

Run from these beers. Seriously.

Though the Red Raspberry beer tasted like clearly Canadian, which certainly has its appeal if you’re trying to get totally trashed without the taste of beer, I still wouldn’t pay for that odd flavor. And the “Tuscan Turd”-flavor tastes actually like polyethylene. Bad news all around.

In other news, I’m going in for a medical procedure in about 3 weeks, and I had a nightmare last night about how painful the procedure will be. It’s supposed to be relatively painless, and my doctor recommended taking some Ibuprofin the morning of. But now I’m nervous.

Friday’s Feast for Friday, July 27, 2007

Appetizer
Describe a toy you remember from your childhood.

The pop-corn rolly popper. i don’t know why, but it’s the one that came to my head first.

Soup
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest) how observant are you?

I’m going to say about a 7; because there are times when I can soak in everything and recall the tiniest minutia, but there are other times where I am completely oblivious.

Salad
Where would you rather be at this very moment?

Either having a posh luncheon with a friend, or chillin’ at the zoo.

Main Course
When was the last time you learned something new?

Yesterday at work.

Dessert
Fill in the blank: I have ____________ but I haven’t ____________.

I have tried pot, but I haven’t done it twice.

Friday’s Feast for Friday, July 27, 2007

Appetizer
Describe a toy you remember from your childhood.

The pop-corn rolly popper.� i don’t know why, but it’s the one that came to my head first.

Soup
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest) how observant are you?

I’m going to say about a 7; because there are times when I can soak in everything and recall the tiniest minutia, but there are other times where I am completely oblivious.

Salad
Where would you rather be at this very moment?

Either having a posh luncheon with a friend, or chillin’ at the zoo.

Main Course
When was the last time you learned something new?

Yesterday at work.

Dessert
Fill in the blank: I have ____________ but I�haven’t ____________.

I have tried pot, but I haven’t done it twice.